Work, Sleep, And More Work.

After I moved to my new home at the end of June, I had barely time to settle down before I rushed off to Paris. When I came back, I immediately got busy like a worker bee. Because I had promised a cooperation project before the end of the month, I had to submit sketches for a total of ten paintings. To be honest, I haven’t devoted myself to such a project for a long time. Every day I just painted, ate instant noodles, slept. And the next day, repeat the whole thing! I felt like a robot trying to produce art. But a robot is a mechanical machine, there's no feeling there. So I'm trying to be a robot, but with feelings! It's all very paradoxical and a little stressful. I finally uploaded all 10 paintings yesterday, done! I instantly felt that the boulder that had been in my heart for a long time had finally disappeared. I smiled and told my husband, I can finally enjoy our new home, and for the rest of August, I don't want to have any schedules, no jobs waiting, no social parties, or socializing. The only thing I want to do is take good care of myself and my cat! And my husband, maybe.

自從6月底搬完新家後,才把家裡大概安頓好,就立刻衝去巴黎,回來後就整個人進入了一種工蜂的生產模式,因為先前答應的一個合作案,要在月底前交稿,一共要生產十幅畫作。說真的,我好久沒有這麼全心投入在一個project這麼長的時間,每天就是畫畫,吃泡麵,睡覺,隔天再重複這樣的行程,我覺得自己好像機器人,但卻要產出所謂的藝術品,這好像有點弔詭,邏輯上跟執行面上都讓我覺得很不舒服。總之,終於在昨天把10幅畫都電子黨化後,順利交稿,瞬間感覺自己心上壓著好久的巨石,終於消失不見了。我笑著跟老公說,我總算可以好好享受我們的新家了,接下來的整個八月,我不想排任何行程,沒有等待的工作,沒有要去籌辦的社交派對,或交際應酬;我唯一想做的事,就是好好照顧我自己。