Every year around this period, I always feeling people are getting much more busier than usual. I imaging myself like grandpa feeding pigeons in the park, leisurely looking at people running all over the places, my first thought is I would like to give you some pet talks, cheer you up a little because you seem very tired and exhausted, and then I carefully analyzed this situation over again, my conclusion is NO, people been exhausted and acting like crazy busy person because they want things goes like this. They are kind of showing off how talented they are, or how important they are, its feel like the whole world will become so much darker without they shining their hard working sweats. So I won't say anything, any at all to increase your self centering narcissism issue.
Anyway, where I am ? I was thinking to write something to conclude the end of year, somehow I got distracted by other irrelevant stuff. So! I had counted 28 pieces of paintings been made this year, although there are 10 pieces artworks made for marketing purpose, I am not very proud of it to be honest, nevertheless I still got 18 pieces of artworks with really good quality and brilliant idea, so I think... yeah I had earn my year of 2022, it really no need to stress out myself to create another piece before 2023 just to prove I am productive and working so forking hard like those people I just mentioned from above. I think its about time for me to let go myself, I will paint again when I feel like it, right now the only thing I want to become is a elegantly house man. like those royal family in UK. make some tea, sunbathing, playing with cat, beautify my face with tones of masks, shopping, reading , watching movies from the Chinese illegal website, get drunk, and repeat. you know what? there are still 16 days can be wasted before 2023. people would probably thinking I am so terribly spoiled, or anything. but only me knew what I had been through this year, and I think I totally have the right to squander the rest of time as I desired. I called it self not care. We human beings sometimes really need to fuck up our life to understand how treasure it is when we be able to live in a decency.